GALENTINES

This week has been a blur. I have been consistently exhausted. On the bright side, yesterday after working in the freezing cold, I took an hour and half nap, went to bed early that night, and slept for 11 hours. Lol. I think I was tired. Hopefully I will be energized for this week!

On Friday I was rigged into speed dating. Yes, you heard me right. Speed dating. 🤢 They told us that they were catering Thai food. Obviously, if I don’t have to cook for myself, I am going to go. BUT. They told us that in order to get food, we had to participate in the speed dating. Internally, I gave the largest eye-roll and self-deprecating moan of disgust, but it actually turned out to be really fun! I love people, and although I felt like I was in missionary dinner appointment mode, it was super great. And following Valentine’s Day (a constant reminder that I am unwanted by the male species), it was fun. Fifteen dates in one week, rough life man.

Nothing makes me feel as fat as conditioning with 18 year old fit freshman. I have got SO much work today and no matter what I do I am reminded of all the fitness flaws that my body and mind have. I’ve got a big mountain to climb. But it’s okay. It’s been done before. I can’t expect fitness without pain. We also played on the grass field, and I got SO MUDDY! It made me feel like I was 13 again playing in a competitive tournament.

On the bright side I hit some big numbers on my max’s this week. Not any PR’s, but better than I was expecting post-mission.

Arizona and I went to Mexican food for Valentine’s Day. It was delicious in my un-snobbish of Mexican food opinion. I hate like two whole baskets of chips by myself. #fatty

The announcement about communication from the missionaries is WAY cool! I’m jealous I didn’t have that!

Anywayyyyy.

Went to visit a sister that I minister to with Coach Cox and it was sooooo good! I have just felt this need to reach out to her, and we went to church together today. So that’s been really good! I sense a friendship in the making!

On a funny, not so funny note, I was driving up to class and saw these two girls about to walk up the hill of death to get to campus. I stopped to offer them a ride and they agreed, and when the second girl came over to the car, she missed the curb, and landed on the pavement face-first!!! I. Was. Shook. She didn’t get her hands out in time and her face hit the pavement. Come to find out her and her sister are in my ward, and the girl that fell HAS A CONCUSSION. I am never giving service again.

Anyway.

High School soccer this week starts this week, so my life about to get crazy. Pray for my soul.

Love you all.

I say “you all” like more people than my mom read my blog. Lol.

Questions of the Soul

Another week in my crazy college survival life.

Went over to Arizonas for Sunday dinner (as usual), had delicious shrimp Alfredo and mediocre apple crisp. (Don’t worry, I made the apple crisp- I’m not being rude.
This kid Nate came.
He has been home from his mission for 5 years, away from the church for 4. We were in the middle of an intense game of Mario Bros and he so casually ask’s “Can I ask you guys a spiritual question?”
My mind was so intent on trying to multitask, but I couldn’t. Finally I had to pause the darn game (that I was winning y the way) and for the next 2.5 hours we had one of the most spiritually searching discussions I had ever had before.

It hurt my heart because I know he wants answers to his questions. I hate not having the answers. And now I feel compelled to make his search my search. I. Want. Answers.

Also, lots of doctrinal questions came up for me this week. I think I will talk to Bishop Rasmussen this week about it.

Also, Arizon’s roommates cat is an embodied Satan. Hate him. Although, we seem to be best friends. It’s complicated.

This week was officially the weirdest. And it just got weirder.

Anyway.

Watched the movie avatar. One of my housemates full-on, uncontrollably sobbed. Didn’t realize that people could emotionally connect with blue cat-lookin’ people. Learn something new every day.

Mom told me they have to put my dog down this week. My heart is breaking a little. She’s old and she’s had a good life. She is seriously so BA. Like,

Forced myself to get out of the house and go to SVUIdol- it was pretty good. Glad I went. Went with Arizona and Kylie and my roomies.

Also.

GUESS WHAT?

Kylie is Arizon’s roommate who is from Silverton. Her fiancé is a convert to the church, and his missionary is COLE THOMPSON! Isn’t that crazy?!?! SMALL. FREAKING. WORLD.

I worked the men’s lax game, sat right behind the teams. I just about froze to death. Took me a couple of hours to de-thaw. Saw a coach scream the “f” word and throw a water-bottle off the premises. The opposing team was yelling out *ish like, “They’re Mormons and they’re virgins, can’t get worse than that” - I never wanted to fight an ugly lax boy so bad. But it’s okay. It was a fun game to watch.

I got to go to the family ward and help out in their Young Women’s class. It felt good to be teaching again. I LOVE the youth. I was reminded by my friend Ryan that I’m not allowed in the family ward because I’m single ✌🏼 Thanks bud.

The family ward is way better than the YSA here.

I’m grateful that Arizona is out here at school. I’d be drowning without her.

I decided I’m going to get a psychology minor

Oh yeah! One more thing.

I finally got cleared by the doctor to play soccer (with a lecture about my blood pressure) and it was my first week back in the weight room. That being said, I was so sore and I walked around campus like I had a stick up ass. 🙂

Love you all.

Everything Coming Together

I’m still adjusting.
But I’m doing better.
I’m trying to be a good disciple of Christ.
It’s hard.
On the bright side, I didn’t have to go to church alone today.
I’m starting to find how I fit into this school again.
Ryan and I reminisced about how fun it was when him, mike, and colin practically lived at our house.
I got a calling as an activities committee member and today we had spaghetti. Mike declared I was the “food mom” of the ward. The legend never dies.

I got the sweetest messsage from my buddy Shawn on the mission. I miss the people I taught there every day. Gosh missions are amazing.

A headlight was out on my car.
I felt BA because I purchased the light and installed it by myself (with the help of a text to dad and youtube).
I don’t need no man.
I got my refund from the school just in time to pay rent 🙏🏽
I started working for the school’s athletic staff until springs
I train for a PCA position this week, as well as have a paper, two tests and a paper outline due. I’m going to die. But I’m grateful.
I made two slightly unessecary purchase. I bought fake black AirPods. (Ahaha) we call them “Poor pods”. I also bought a candle warmer for my bedroom. It smells like the armpit of a bakery. Maybe a touch like Christmas morning.
Still can’t stand the kid in my spikeball class. He’s an ass. My prideful self felt better when my teammate and I beat him.
Got judged for serving in the UTSLCW mission. But I just let it roll off my shoulders. God knows. If God didn’t want missionaries there, he wouldn’t send them there.
Had JJ’s meat shack and was disappointed in the pizza this time. Oh well.
I had a good heart to heart with Heavenly Father this week and finally felt a real connection with heaven for the first time in a long time. Love Him.

Anyway.

College is great. I’m trying. Hope I can do this thing called life.